Children get older, I'm getting older too...

Sometimes I find myself waiting for my life to start.   Like some magical day I'm going to wake up and everything will be as it should be, as I thought it would be.

When I was a little girl, I dreamt about how perfect life would be someday.    And though in my dreams I never could quite see the details, the story always ended the same: Happily Ever After.   

Sometimes I still feel like that little girl, still dreaming about what life will be like when I grow up.   And here I sit,  getting older every day, and I find myself wondering when I'm going to start living?    I spend so much time waiting.... for that happily ever after.   But the truth is, life is not a fairy tale.   Don't get me wrong, life is beautiful, my life is beautiful.    But life is a journey, a long and winding journey, with ups and downs.    I just have to keep reminding myself to open my eyes along the way, because there are beautiful things happening all around.   

I need to learn how to let go.  

Of people I've loved, and lost.  

Of ideas I had about who I should be

Of mistakes that I've made.

Of what might have been.

I need to stop waiting

And just let it be 

stop dwelling on the past.

Stand up and walk out of your history.

-- Phil McGraw

and remember that things change.

I need to start living.

We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the life that is waiting for us.
-- Joseph Campbell