A year in song...

This is something I put together a few years back on a new years day.   I've mentioned before my love for music and lyrics.  In my life, I've so many times used music to say what I couldn't.  These are some of my favorite lyrics taken from over 30 of my favorite songs, all pieced together to sum up my year back then.   Every word is a line from a song....I got a little carried away, can you tell!? haha.  It makes sense to me, hopefully it will make sense to you.

So this is the new year, and I don't feel any different.  Popping champagne, living life in the fast lane. I know you like to party...but the party never stops! If I die and go to hell real soon, it will appear to me as this room...

It's so easy to get lost in constantly having to preserve whatever face you believe a person wants to see, rather than your own. I just found a friend in one of your lies. Don't you think I could tell that you were trying to make a fool out of me? I hope you hang yourself with your H&M scarf. You're so gay, and you don't even like boys. Attention all of my worst critics who were once the best of friends: you're all just crows on the power line. You're wearing your skin like it's too tight...

There's nothing you can do that can't be done. Nothing you can sing that can't be sung.  Nothing you can say but you can learn how to play the game, It's easy.  There's nothing you can make that can't be made. No one you can save that can't be saved. Nothing you can do but you can learn how to be in time, It's easy. All you need is love. I'll get by with a little help from my friends...

Go ahead and burn it down, I'm drunk and so is everyone else in this devil town. And I know what you're thinking, but that won't stop this drinking, cause you're still around. I can feel you all around me. Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person? I'm an addict for dramatics. No need for reminding, you're still all that matters to me. And if I could only stop the car and hold on to you, and never let go, I'd never let go. And I want to speak these words, but I guess I'll just bite my tongue, and accept "someday" "somehow" as the words that we'll hang from. Oh the idea of being in love..the idea of being forever yours. Please promise me you'll never let me go, let them say what they will...

And that's what you get when you let your heart win. I'm not the one that you want, I'll only let you down, and I'm pretty sure that you've caught on. I guess I'm horrible for you. I heard you're getting out? I just want to see you laugh, not cry. Nobody said it was easy, but no one ever said it would be this hard. It's such a shame for us to part. Maybe I should hate you for this...never really did ever quite get that far. The truth is, I miss you. And it hurts so much, it's like choking. I set myself up for the greatest fall of all time. Tell me..how long could you hang onto a wire?....

Better than me of course, you're always right, you're always on the ball. I know you don't think that I am trying, I know you're wearing thin down to the core. This is not what I intended, I always swore to you I'd never fall apart. You always thought that I was stronger. I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start. I'm not calling for a second chance, I'm screaming at the top of my voice. Give me reason, but don't give me choice, cause I'll just make the same mistake again....

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick and think of you. Confusion is nothing new. You're making a small change, to the way that you wear your hair, I like it better. With your hands on my shoulders, a meaningless moment, a movie script ending, and the patrons are leaving. And I think I am just as torn inside. I don't know who I am without you, all I know is that I should. And I won't be far from where you are, if ever you should call. If you're lost, you can look and you will find me, time after time. If you fall I will catch you, I'll be waiting, time after time. But you taught me how to trust myself and so I say to you...this is what I have to do. I'll move on, I'll look back with honor, and no regrets. I won't be mad, I won't feel bad. These memories will never leave me. Don't be sad, cause life goes on. There are places I'll remember all my life. And of all these friends and lovers, there is no one who compares with you. I love you till the end. I hope that things work out for you. After all...we were infinite for a moment....

Tomorrow is here and I believe in yesterday. Though my heart is breaking open, know that I will not be broken. Though there may be heartache, there will be an answer. When the night is cloudy, there is still a light that shines on me. Shine on till tomorrow and whisper words of wisdom, let it be. Love is all you need. Let it be.....

This must be it....welcome to the new year!

The rest is still unwritten.